Precious Life

Tonight I am having a hard time getting to sleep due to all the thoughts in my head. My heart is heavy tonight for a sweet family in the ward. They lost their 6-month-old little baby today. She put him down for a nap and that was it. I know that this is not a totally uncommon experience but still, it breaks my heart. I can't even imagine what that family is going through.

Now, I am not trying to diminish what that family is going through but I don't know what I would do without Austin. He brings so much joy and happiness into our lives. The thought of loosing him at any moment tonight really has me thinking. I have to admit, there are times when I come home and I am worn out and don't have any energy left for Austin. I know that this will sound terrible, but those hard days I don't put that much effort into playing with him, and yet he seems to know. He will compensate by being extra sweet, polite, funny, and just the wonderful little boy he is. I am going to try my hardest from now on to be better about that. Austin amazes me everyday with the things he does, and I don't want to miss any of it. Life is so precious. We were told after I had Austin that if they hadn't taken him a week early we probably wouldn't have him with us today. I thank the Lord everyday for our sweet miracle.

I don't want to have regrets if something happens to anyone close to me like: I was angry with that person last time I ever saw them, didn't kiss them goodnight or goodbye, didn't tell them I love them. Please, hug your little ones a little tighter, and live like it could be the last day you have with them.

Also, please pray for this sweet family that they will be comforted during this hard time.

Hand - "and"

On a recent trip to Colorado Austin was in the back "reading" Hand, Hand, Fingers, Thumb. I noticed that he was studying the pictures. He noticed on one page that the monkeys were holding hands. He then looked at his hand and stuck it out towards me in the front of the van and asked, "and?" I asked if he wanted to hold hands and he shook his head yes. I then stuck out my hand and he grabbed it. He then pointed to the picture on the page and said "and" again. He is so sweet!

Now, he will be walking next to us or sitting with us at church and asks to hold hands. How did I get such a sweet boy? I absolutely love it!